It is with more than a little trepidation that I begin this blog...my name is Pamela Tough and I am 26 years old. I have struggled with my weight all my life, and was my lightest when I was 14. I know my Dad had weight problems so there's a disposition there, but I cannot blame anyone else but me for my current state. Last time I weighed myself about a week ago I was 123kgs, and at my heaviest I weighed 134....and today is D day - DO DAY!
I found some old negatives from when I was younger - my graduation and formal photos were on that roll, and when I showed a workmate she couldnt believe it was me...mortified I listen to her shocked aws and ahs over the photos, exclaiming that I look like a completely different person. And the truth is, I DO look like a completely different person now. I dont recognise the girl in the photos anymore, and I decided there and then that enough was enough! I've wasted so much time being hopeless... so much time sabotaging myself and convincing myself that I wasnt worth any better than what I am. But, tomorrow is a new day! Brad my husband has suggested I go to the doctor to get a full check up and to determine if there's anything medical wrong, so tomorrow I will make the appointment. I will weigh myself first thing also, so I know exactly where I'm starting from.
I dont write this blog anticipating anyone actually reading it...in fact I don't plan on telling anyone I know about it. This blog is for me.....I will be writing in it everyday, tracking my progress and trying to address the internal dialogue that goes on in my head, particularly when dealing with food. I hope one day I can look back at this blog, and not recognise the person who wrote these words.
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